Category Archives: Personal

May 14 2013

What’s happening?

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There are over 20 drafts in my dashboard that haven’t been published. Every time I reread them all I can hear are complaints of everything that has happened the last 4 months. Yes, the last year has been super hard, everyone who has had a child knows it’s hard to even have just one. As I took a shower after both of the kids were finally asleep and my husband went back to work (yes, at 10pm), I had an epiphany of sorts. I need to STOP COMPLAINING and look at the bigger picture!

All I could remember from my day were all the tantrums my toddler threw because “I do it!”, instead of remembering all the kisses and hugs he gave me unprompted. Or how frustrated I was with my husband for not picking up after himself instead of focusing how hard he worked all day, yet still made time to take a family walk and give the baby a bath before bed.

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I’m making the effort now to slow down. Think before I speak/yell. Most importantly, listen. If I don’t listen I might miss something sweet come out of my little guys lips.

Feb 27 2013

Winter Wonderland

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Usually around this time of year I start itching to plan a family vacation. Unfortunately, haven’t had the luxury to vacation since… ever. The farthest out David and I have been together has been Indianapolis or Wisconsin Dells. I’m ready for us to go somewhere warm and tropical. Fortunately, I think we can finally make it on a bona fide road trip! Seems like anywhere within a 100 mile radius to us was hit by a huge snow/rain storm. We got a nice amount of heavy snow… finally.

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Before take off the heavy wet snow.

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After pushing off all the heavy snow.

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I went out to dig our cars out of the snow so it wouldn’t take so much time in the morning. Gabriel’s got a play date with a girl friend early. I hate to be late to things. Anyway, isn’t the snow pretty?

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Usually I’m a lover of snow, but now I’m ready for spring. Come on out Easter bunny! I’m ready for you!

Feb 20 2013

Stress, what stress?

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I don’t know what got into me yesterday. My stress and anxiety levels were off the charts.

It might have been a little bit of Rafael putting up a nursing strike, or his eczema getting worse, or Gabriel’s cranky mood.

In just the last month if have done so much better with being a patient person. Tomorrow {today} is another day!

Speaking of nursing strike {prepare for boob talk}: this is my first time exclusively breastfeeding. We have been doing well the last month up until a week ago when Rafael started to want to eat every hour or two after going for 4 hour stretches. Yesterday morning he wouldn’t get latched on. There was a ton of crying and arching his back so I gave up and gave him his pacifier. He slept for half an hour while I held him. He woke up as soon as I put him down, of course. This went on all day. I think we only had about three “good” feedings. I’m hurting pretty bad right now and pumping is no help at all. I don’t think he’s sick so it can only mean that either he’s teething, having a growth spurt or that darn eczema is really bothering him.

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His cheek this morning.

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His cheek before bedtime.

Thankfully it’s just on his cheek, eyebrow and a little on his earlobe area. I’ve been trying Cetaphil lotion and Aveeno’s Baby Eczema Therapy. I guess only time will tell if it will get better or worse. Darn weather isn’t helping either. Yesterday it was 50, today it was 12. Make up your mind!

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David and I take turns getting Gabriel in the morning.

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It’s on of my favorite things to do because I get to see who was evicted from his crib.

Today it was…

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Elmo 2 of 3!

This kid has a zoo of stuffed animals he HAS to sleep with. It’s so darn cute.

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Gabriel pulled off a hang nail from his finger. He kept telling me it hurt so I put a band aid on him. He liked it… for two minutes then he wanted it off.

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Per my request we’ve been brewing the coffee stronger around here. It’s just the way of life sometimes.

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I swear I only love Dunkin’ Doughnuts pastries during Febuarary. So cute and yet so yummy.

Sep 27 2012

{Creative Soul} 2012

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This weekend I had the wonderful opportunity to attend Creative Soul thanks to an invite from Hyacynth. The morning of the event we kicked started out creativity with name badge making, followed by a writing circle, lunch, Visual Prayer with Michelle Pendergrass, and a really great dinner.

I’ve never been to a writers circle before so I was nervous going in.

The support was unbelievable.

The love for creativity was palpable.

My nerves eased after I read from my 20 minute prompt.

I was given advice that will forever change the way I think about writing.

One day I will share the words written that day, today I am not ready.

Soon.

 

 

Aug 3 2012

Not my shining moment…

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Yesterday I got really upset with something my husband said. We try not to have arguments in front of Mr. G . Sometimes they happen. We can both lose our tempers and words get a little louder than they should. This argument conjured up tears on my part. It was silly, but that’s how it’s been for a couple of weeks now. It seems like I can’t have a decent conversation without tears nowadays.

Mr. G saw that I was upset from across the room, dropped whatever toy he was playing with and came up to me with such a concerned look.  He didn’t want his mommy to be upset. He wanted up into my lap to snuggle with me. It was such a role reversal: instead of me taking care or him, he took care of me.

We snuggled on the couch for a long time. Until it was time for dinner, for his almond milk, and his bedtime routine.

Usually Mr G goes to bed right away. This time he wanted me to rock him a little bit. Long after the tears where gone, and I’m sorry’s were issued.  He knew that I didn’t want the snuggles to end. I took advantage of every single moment last night.