Looking from the outside in you would think that my life if great: loving husband, wonderful child, a house, a car, a  job, a caring family. I just can’t help but feel like there is always something missing.

I also have:

No mother.

No father.

No brothers.

No sisters.

The last couple of months no having these things in my life has really effected my everyday life.

I can’t go back to change things but if I could change one thing it would to help save my mother.

She passed away when I was 11. Cause unknown, but deep down I know the truth.

My father is a deadbeat. I’ve never met him, nor do I want to, but deep down I would like to know why… Why he never wanted me in his life.

Not having a brother or a sister really sucks. I see my cousins with their siblings and I have to try to overcome my jealousy. They might fight and not talk to each other for a while, but they NEED each other. I’ve always wanted that.

It hurts when I sit down and dwell upon my greedy wants. Which, again, has been A LOT lately. There isn’t anything I can do about it. I can only make a better future for myself, for my son, and for my husband.

I want my children to have a happy mom.

The road to recovery began 14 years ago. Now is the time to seek the help I really need.

It begins here.